So ok, I guess the big thing to talk about is this....homosexuality.

Where do you draw the line? How do you accept things like this? Is it right or wrong? How am I not supposed to be judgemental?

K, So I decided I'm not going to dance around the bush on here. My dad recently turned homosexual....righhhhhht. Well he says he has always been, just that he was hiding it. So he ups and leaves one day refusing to come back. So now I am torn. Being a Christian would say don't judge and that is between him and God. Being a daughter, I am devastated, crushed and horrified that my family has fallen apart. Being a mother, I honestly feel like I don't want my son around him.

The hardest part, I still love him so very much as my father, but I miss the man he use to be.

So yeah, I'm having a hard time with it, if you couldn't tell. On one hand I want to hug him and say it will be ok. On the other I want to shake him and ask him what caused him to loss his ever lovin mind and in the distance between I'm so confused I don't know what I want or how to express that. I see how hurt my family is over this and it makes me sick.

I'm the little girl that use to say "I don't care if we live in a shack with no food as long as we are together." So you can imagine the time I am having with this. And being frank, if I don't "accept" this am I judging him? Or if I "accept" it am I not standing up for what I believe?

Now as if that wasn't enough...he just told us he and his "friend" are moving to Florida. So what kind of relationship can we even have with each other if he is in Florida? That really makes me feel like counseling was a waste of time, tears and effort. So what do I say to the man now? He knows I want my dad back, he knows I don't believe him when he says he is gay. He knows how I feel about the right and wrong thing....but nothing is changing.

NOTHING!!!!

I wonder how obvious my frustration is?