Disappointed in discipline

Two days ago I got written up at work twice. Yes, twice in one day...for little stupid things. Yesterday I got called into the D.O.N.'s office. I missed the bullet of suspension just by a hair. So the rest of the day I was just watching my p's and q's.

Well today while I was working I was thinking of how disappointed in myself I was for getting written up. All of my write ups have been for careless things. Things that I should have never missed. I have 5 to 6 write ups for things like that and I am still on my 3 month probation per new hires. My 3 months aren't up until Jan. 2nd.

I thought about how that reflected on my character. There was no excuses for gettting written up. I don't blame the ones that wrote me up, I blame myself. The reasoning of "I wasn't thinking" doesn't fly with me anymore. What it boils down to is...a lack of discipline. I don't have enough discipline to make sure that every detail of my job description is fufilled before its time for my shift to end. And if for some reason I am truly prevented from completing a task, then I should tell the charge nurse.