The probable desicion is this...T will go to ATL for basic, AIT and training. Then once he is stationed he will have baby boy and I move down to where he is stationed.

We talked about it long and hard. I tried my best to see his point of veiw and he tried to see mine. I respect his thoughts and feelings about them so I won't bring them up here. After we both felt we said our peace.

I said, that I was not going anywhere and whatever he thought he needed to do, I know he would be great at it and support him in it. I told him a memory that I had with my father a long time ago, about jobs and money. And while it may seem like fairy tale thinking thats truly how I feel about it. And that I will always be his.

(Now for those that are thinking I should have never said that I will always be his...thats your opinion, its your right to disagree if you choose. However, don't discount and put aside how much I meant what I said.)

I teared up on him a couple times, but managed not to out and out cry. He told me he knew how hard that was for meto say it, and that he needed to hear me say that. He kissed my cheek, and I his and he just held me. Even though I didn't want him to go, I know that he is...I know that he will do wonderfully, I know that I will be there with him eventually. And everything will be as it should be. And if by chance it does not happen that way. Then God will have to give me that grace to let him go.

After I left I did cry...I cried because of what I said and how much I meant it. I literally thought in the car..."Girl, why didn't you cry and pout, scream no and make him stay? Why did you tell him it was ok?" The only answer I could tell myself was, "because I love him too much for him to stay where he isn't being challenged in life. I love him too much to want him to be miserable here. Because I love him too much to be selfish in this, and because I truly do mean it...if I said I didn't it would be a lie. And if for nothing else, I promised I would never lie to him"

If BCT is 9 weeks...and AIT is 9-24 weeks. Thats an 18 week min. and an 33 week max. So, 8 months....I can do that. It will be hard...but its doable.