Feelin the Christmas Spirit

T is coming home for Christmas!!

I can't wait! A little over a month and a half. I will also be done with my first 3 months of nursing school, and the day after our christmas break I head to clinicals...that means I will have successfully completed the following classes

Lifeskills, Intro. to Nursing, Nutrition, Gerontology, Dosage Calculations, Growth and Development, Anatomy and Physiology, Foundations of Nursing, Med Surg 1, and Nurseskills

It also means that I will have maintained above the required GPA and only be a hop, skip and jump away from passing my LPN boards.

It will also be my first Christmas in my own place! I'm looking forward to it alot.

Things are so intense!

I dream about Christmas almost everynight...
Yesterday T asked me what I wanted for Christmas....for the first time ever. All I could think to say was for him to be home for the holidays, and something special from him making me his. Turns out, thats what he wants for Christmas too...Nice to know we are both on the same page.

I have noticed too alot of things about myself these last few months...
I miss cooking for T. I miss having family dinners. I miss T snoring in my ear. I miss having my Dad, Mum and boys in one place. I miss the incense my Mum burned during the holidays. I miss the heart felt laughter in our family and the sincere smiles and hugs. And while somethings will be naturally missed because its no longer a phase in my life...others I miss because I am not ready to let them go and accept the way things are now. And still some I miss purely because I can not have them at this point in time but will in the future.

Its easy enough to find that same incense...and I'll get to hear T snoring soon enough, and my new family can have the family dinners, I'll get to cook more food than T can hold down when he gets here. lol. The rest I have to work my way through letting them go...mayby its just that I need to let them go for right now. I truly do believe my family will be together with heart felt laughter and sincere smiles and hugs again.

But at least I can give Baby Boy that now in the present. And it wont be long before the new family is all in one place...