Not a whole lot to write about...This weekend was good, T and I got to talk a whole lot more than usual. He had some time off and I was off from work and school. We laughed and got to really enjoy each other again. One thing he said that bothers me is..."I feel like a piece of machinery..." That gripped at my heart. I don't want him to feel that way. Yet I know its how he has to feel for right now. I don't want him to be a bleeding heart and be in the middle of a war where he can't focus. Thats how people die. I need him to survive...to come home in one piece. At the same time though I want him to have a chance to be himself again, to laugh and play. To show the different emotions he has and just be human again. I'm not sure how to do that yet, but I'm working on it.