I started training for my job this week...and its interesting to say the least. I am really bored in there. I don't know everything yet, but I wish we could go faster in learning it. I'm all for going slow for people to understand, and I can pretty much slow myself down and stay with the group. But it starts off as this itch to just get it done already. I see that little clock on the bottom of the window and think "This call has already taken 20 min, instead of the average 4 min." I don't know why my inner time clock runs fast like that. Like for instance I had 10 min to complete a problem on the board. So I went to work, I was thinking in my mind the 10 min was close to being up and made myself finish on time. Only to look up after I finished to see it had only be 4 min and everyone else was on page 1. So I paitently sat, and waited. The trainer came to look at my computer and I had everything correct. It doesn't bother me to sit and wait, I'm use to it by now. I just don't want anyone to think they are slow because I was faster. I like everyone in my training class, and we have fun.

Baby boy starts his first day of daycare on Monday. I'm kind of antsy about it, I know he will do fine. Its just that I may not.

Funny thing happened....This morning while brushing my teeth I had a random thought pop in my head. And for those that know me thats not a rare occurance. So anyways, I asked my Mum, "You know how toothpaste makes pregnant women nauseous? Does that ever go away or does it stay?" You should have seen her face...her eyes went big and she just looked at me. I almost rolled over laughing. It hit me like a ton of bricks, that really sounds like I'm about to say I'm pregnant. She then said, "Ask me specifically related to you" Now, toothpaste never made me nauseous, thats why I didn't know. I explained to her, it was just a random thought and I am no where near being pregnant. Her face relaxed and she said "it depends, some do some don't, I just had to switch toothpaste" I nodded and went about finishing getting ready. its funny how in my mind, I never would have thought that would mean I was pregnant, but then again I'm "special" (big cheese) and shouldn't expect others to think like I do.

I don't really know what else to write, I'm listening to "Spoiled" by Joss Stone, she is a Brit import. Here are the lyrics:

I kinda thought that I'd be better off by myself
I've never been so wrong before
you made it impossible for me to ever
Love somebody else
And now I don't know what I left you for

See I thought that I could replace you
He can't love me the way you do
'Till now I never knew
Baby

[Chorus]
I'm spoiled
By your love boy
No matter how I try to change my mind
What's the point its just a waste of time
I'm spoiled by your touch boy
The love you give is just too hard to fight
Don't want to live without you in my life
I'm spoiled

I tried to tell myself I'd be over you in a week or two
But baby that was 'bout a year ago
I've never seen the word love so personified as I do with you
And that is why I just can't let go, oh no

[Chorus]

Spoil me

And I would only be fooling myself if I tried to
Believe there's room for someone else in my heart
There ain't no way I'm getting over you
I don't know what I've been trying to prove
I'm hopeless, helpless when it comes to you

[Chorus]

I've been spoiled yeah yeah

A-Z Lyrics

Now, I'm not really sure why this is my favorite song right now, well one of them. I can't really relate to all of it, but some of it I can. I'm too the point were its easier to go through loving him, then to be without him and go through. Love is a choice, made everyday. So, you could say I'm spoiled when it comes to him.

Joss Stone amazes me, she is a 18 yr. old caucasian Brit with a smokey mature voice...it blew my mind when I saw her. You wouldn't think that voice would be able to come out that body. She is nothing like Britney Spears. I like some of her other songs as well. 'Understand' and 'Sleep Like A Child' as my other favs.